The fertility stuff....needless to say it's taken an emotional toll on me but I'm doing better. Having constant communication with Ramin about everything - how I'm feeling and the next steps we need to take - has really helped keep me in good spirits!
We've decided to stop seeing the fertility specialist for a while. Why? Because I don't like having to squeeze into their "protocol" and model for PCOS patients. Their goal is to get you pregnant as quickly as possible, by whatever means necessary. Yes I want to get pregnant, but I don't necessarily want to do it by any means necessary. Case in point, they wanted to start me off at 100mgs of Clomid...after doing my own research (extensively) I already knew that 50mgs was actually the starting dose. When I pressed the doctor for reasons why she wanted to start me at 100mgs, she basically told me it's "standard procedure" for PCOS patients and that it's what my main doctor wanted me to do. Things just didn't feel right to me. I wanted to give my new medication (Metformin) another few months to try and work on my cycle by itself before introducing a whole new drug into my system.
So I'm not a few weeks into my next cycle with just Metformin and I'm hoping for good results. Ramin and I have discussed the possibilities of it not working and we know our next steps. I'm pretty hopeful about things right now.
Starting on Monday, December 31st, I'll be starting an entirely new workout/diet plan - more like a lifestyle plan. I'll be going on my insulin resistance diet (to help me control my hormones) and I'll also be starting the P90X workout program. The workout program lasts for 90 days and I've got a calendar all ready to go. Ramin will even be my coach and help me stay on track. I even have negative consequences for myself if I don't workout every day I'm supposed to! I also have a good reward at the end if I complete the entire 3 months - a trip to Disneyland!! So I'm looking forward to working on some health goals.
As for what we've been doing over the past month - it's basically been the usual. I decorated for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving (pictures below) and we've just been getting ready for the holiday.
I'd also say that I've been a bit more nostalgic lately and I've been reminiscing about the past. It's always funny to me how the choices you make lead you to your current circumstances. I always like to think and trace back to how I got where I am today, whether it be in work, education, relationships, etc. It's always fascinating to me think about my path up to the current point and sometimes I like to think about how things would be different if I'd chosen a different path. Not that I am unhappy with my current circumstances, quite the opposite, I just find it interesting to think about what could have been.
Here are the camera phone pictures from the past month!
Belle and Dingo laying on top of me on the couch - they are my cuddle buddies!
A beautiful sunset one night as I was driving home from work.
Belle loved watching the AKC Dog Show on Thanksgiving.
Day after Thanksgiving shopping with my friend Jenn and her daughter Liesel - she loved trying on all of the different glasses in the store :)
A look at some of my Christmas decorations
Ramin's brother Babak requested that there be a picture of the dogs wearing reindeer ears - they didn't like it very much!
The holiday wreaths I made - this one is the indoor one to match my jewel-tone Christmas.
My outdoor yarn wreath in peppermint candy-cane style
I actually finished my stocking in time for Christmas! Now Ramin and I can have coordinating stockings!
Closer up view of my Snow Queen stocking
The second week of December I had to fly to San Jose for work for a few days. Here's a shot of my hotel room - it was rather nice :)
While I was in San Jose I met up with my great friend Marci and her husband Lock and their new little baby boy Aiden! Here is Lock enjoying his massive ice cream sundae from Buca di Beppo!
Here I am with Marci and Aiden - that little guy is so stinkin cute! I'm so happy for them :)
The day we left the hotel in San Jose I saw these lovely flowers and had to snap a picture.
I came home and made Christmas cookies that weekend. It was the first time I used my Kitchen Aid that Chris bought us for our wedding! It was way easy and fun to use!
And then I got sick....this past week hasn't been too fun but I've been keeping my spirits up listening to good music :)
